Sunday, November 22, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
11/17/2009
E.'s abilities are still broken. We have tried everything we could think of to stimulate her brain, hoping to fix her. Not that it is a surprise, but we have paid close enough attention to her to diagnose her with severe depression, in addition to the litany of physical and mental illnesses she has already.
I hate to say it, but I am glad for her to be in such a sorry state. The list of possible off-switches is narrowing, but nobody wants to suggest the obvious: that increased freedoms are necessary for her mind to recover.
Stress is a little more bearable. My brain feels flat.
I hate to say it, but I am glad for her to be in such a sorry state. The list of possible off-switches is narrowing, but nobody wants to suggest the obvious: that increased freedoms are necessary for her mind to recover.
Stress is a little more bearable. My brain feels flat.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
11/9/2009
I apologize for my previous post-- the paranoia and sleep deprivation are getting to me. Not to mention the fact that we're illegally and unjustly imprisoning more than a dozen rightfully-free American citizens. I notice as I type that I have chewed my finger nails to nubs. Worst of all, I know that my mental state is deteriorating, and I can do nothing about it. How ironic! A psychoanalyst spiraling into insanity. Though apparently such things are not unhead of, considering the recent Fort Hood fiasco. Indeed, I have half a mind to wipe out every person working here, including myself.
It would be impossible, though...everyone knows exactly how many guns are in the facility, and where they are. This is because they are impossible to steal. Needless to say, weapons technology within this facility is decades ahead of that on the outside, for obvious reasons. We may be deprived of many things here, but advanced weaponry is not one of them. Apparently, neither is internet access. This is very curious, but I won't ask anyone about it.
Please say something, and God bless you.
It would be impossible, though...everyone knows exactly how many guns are in the facility, and where they are. This is because they are impossible to steal. Needless to say, weapons technology within this facility is decades ahead of that on the outside, for obvious reasons. We may be deprived of many things here, but advanced weaponry is not one of them. Apparently, neither is internet access. This is very curious, but I won't ask anyone about it.
Please say something, and God bless you.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
11/5/2009
Apparently I am partially to blame for E.'s lack of performance. She has not done anything since Wednesday. I was supposed to know the intricacies of her delicate psyche and the damage that the room did to her. I do not know, and for obvious reasons. Angry, powerful people need someone to blame...and I seem to be that someone. E. has been our most valuable subject thus far, so losing her would be devastating.
Do they know about this blog? Possibly. In fact, it is very likely that they have found it by now. They may be using E.'s situation as an excuse to toy with me before they strike.
My message to them: FUCK YOU! Do what you want with me, but someone knows. The knowledge of your sick project is spreading. Every single one of you, even Captain Jackass, will hang for this. Do something. It won't end.
Do they know about this blog? Possibly. In fact, it is very likely that they have found it by now. They may be using E.'s situation as an excuse to toy with me before they strike.
My message to them: FUCK YOU! Do what you want with me, but someone knows. The knowledge of your sick project is spreading. Every single one of you, even Captain Jackass, will hang for this. Do something. It won't end.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
11/4/2009
Both children were taken out of the room today. We believe that E. somehow exhausted her abilities. She has not used her abilities in the last three times she was asleep. My colleagues and I will analyze her thoroughly tomorrow. I have my own theory as to why E. has not performed:
I believe (hope, that is) that stress and/or trauma may inhibit a pcisyhc's abilities. The feats they have performed thus far are practically useless, but that may be due to their incarceration. I speak of all of our subjects. The subjects' stress may be holding back their potential! If this is true to any degree, the subjects may be allowed more freedoms, better medical care, and possibly a life in the outside world. I try not to get my hopes up, but there has been little lately for me to place my hopes on at all.
Please help these people. Tell just one other person to read this.
I believe (hope, that is) that stress and/or trauma may inhibit a pcisyhc's abilities. The feats they have performed thus far are practically useless, but that may be due to their incarceration. I speak of all of our subjects. The subjects' stress may be holding back their potential! If this is true to any degree, the subjects may be allowed more freedoms, better medical care, and possibly a life in the outside world. I try not to get my hopes up, but there has been little lately for me to place my hopes on at all.
Please help these people. Tell just one other person to read this.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
11/3/2009
E. stopped breathing for a moment today, but we think that it was only a seizure. No news otherwise.
Monday, November 2, 2009
11/2/2009
Exhausted. We havehardly been able to sleep for the false alarms. Every brainwave in E.'s head is under strict scrutiny, reminiscent of her arrival here. We hardly have time for daily routines for the other subjects. Apparently manpower is more important than people who know what they're doing... the numbers mean nothing to me. I can not complain; they may suspect something if I do. I have never felt such a strain on my nerves! I am afraid for myself...I know how exhaustion and nervousness behave together. We never learned this in school!
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