11/2/2009

Exhausted. We havehardly been able to sleep for the false alarms. Every brainwave in E.'s head is under strict scrutiny, reminiscent of her arrival here. We hardly have time for daily routines for the other subjects. Apparently manpower is more important than people who know what they're doing... the numbers mean nothing to me. I can not complain; they may suspect something if I do. I have never felt such a strain on my nerves! I am afraid for myself...I know how exhaustion and nervousness behave together. We never learned this in school!