11/3/2009

E. stopped breathing for a moment today, but we think that it was only a seizure. No news otherwise.

11/2/2009

Exhausted. We havehardly been able to sleep for the false alarms. Every brainwave in E.'s head is under strict scrutiny, reminiscent of her arrival here. We hardly have time for daily routines for the other subjects. Apparently manpower is more important than people who know what they're doing... the numbers mean nothing to me. I can not complain; they may suspect something if I do. I have never felt such a strain on my nerves! I am afraid for myself...I know how exhaustion and nervousness behave together. We never learned this in school!

10/30/2009

Please say something

10/28/2009

All computers have been monitored and used to follow brain patterns in E. and "S.", a male child. They both are kept in the room. S. is supposedly a control, though there may be other reasons. He is the closest subject to E.'s age, and colleagues hope that he may emulate E.'s ability when she uses it. He is also a living creature that E.'s ability may potentially affect, like my arm. E. screams less than she used to.

S. likes me more than E. does. He wants to be a police officer, and he likes Spongebob. His parents shouted at each other often. Sometimes he thinks he is still at his home.

10/24/2009

We released mice into the room while she slept. She crushed one of them. I doubt that she will be allowed out of the room now.

10/21/2009

It is my responsibility to monitor E.'s mental state as long as she remains in the room. She does not want to take part in routine daily analysis, so I have been forced to monitor her superficially. It is a time-consuming task, and I am accompanied by three of my sadistic colleagues, so it has been difficult to find time for this blog.

We had to cut E.'s nails and put a bicycle helmet on her in order to keep her from hurting herself. It is hard to think of her behavior outside of the process of analyzing it, it is so vehement. For me to empathize with her in that state would be ruinous. I am driven to complacence by the prospect of her freedom. Since there isPLEASE SPREAD THIS INFORMATION!

10/18/2009

My apologies for the delay-- I was nearly caught. The first floor of our building is built like a prison, the "cells" facilitating both the subjects and the scientists. The only available computers are on the second floor. Why am I rambling? E. still hasn't given us the desired result. She is fed more on a daily basis than she normally is, but her mental state is deteriorating. She vomits after every meal. She could never be a weapon, and everyone knows it.

I have seen nothing in the newspaper about our situation. PLEASE spread this information as widely as you can. This is all I can do from inside. I am not able to leave the facility, however large it is. We need your help.